I started school last January. It has been less than 14 months and I have written 47 midterms and final exams since I started. I am pretty burnt out and my energy is definitely on the decline. 4 semesters in a row with no summer break is very, very unhealthy. And un-health is all I study. Disease after disease, pathological processes, risk factors, infectious and non-infectious agents and causes and basically it is all suffering. Everyone in history who has been unfortunate enough to be labeled with one of these many diseases has suffered, some a great deal. I know it is important to know all of this to practice medicine but it is sad and it weighs you down. It changes how you see the world and how you observe others. I want to bring people out of disease or help them to elevate themselves from this state but just knowing disease will not teach me to do this. If I want to make people healthy, at some point I need to learn all I can about health. Learning what isn't English would not help me to learn French. Learning what isn't health wont help me to learn health. Not quite sure how to go about this.
